Tuesday came and I felt even worse, I had this heaviness in my heart, work didn’t make it any better, I was unhappy for the most part, scared and anxious, my thoughts were all over the place. I haven’t mastered the act of masking my emotions and wearing a fake smile all day err day so I guess my countenance was quite obvious, did the best I could at work, didn’t have a choice, plus I wasn’t ready to ruin things there and compound my problems.

I’m heading somewhere please stick with me.
At night I wouldn’t sleep, there were days I cried my eyes sore, the fright and worry continued.

I decide to talk to a few of my friends, my circle is really small and I would usually talk to myself, my sis or my mom and get all the support, relieve and assurance I needed at that point in time, but I decided to share my problems further, you know what they say about problems being shared, okay.

The last two conversations I had was as if God spoke through their mouths, I gained so much light, I was at work that faithful Wednesday,  I knelt down to pray a simple prayer

I told God “He knows me better than anyone else and all I seek is His peace, I was done worrying about the known and unknown and all I wanted was that He guide me through my journey here on earth and I was willing to not fight His plan or will. In that instance I felt calm, it was magical, so quick so swift, I can’t fitit into words. God heard me, He didn’t answer in the way I was use to hearing Him speak to me. I stood up dusted myself and carried on with my work.

I’m learning to take each day as it comes, running with Matthew 6:33 and watch God settle every other thing.

We live in a chaotic world, it messes with our thought pattern, work us up and ultimately leave us feeling miserable, not the best feeling I can assure you.

Please do not bottle up your feelings, I’d say talk to someone, not just anyone, more than anyone in this world we all know what good counsel sounds like and where to get one. Most importantly talk to God, not like your Boss, or strict parent, talk to him like you would talk to your love interest, ask Him relevant Questions, he’s a question answering God, don’t be hasty to leave, wait till you get a response, He’s always speaking.

I don’t know who’s meant to see this, I just want you to know you’re not alone God loves you more than you could ever imagine, He sees all you’re going through and he just wants you to let him in, so he can help you.

Thank you for taking out time to read my blog, please share this if you think it might help someone out there. I love you all see you in my next post. Peace!

I want to appeal to you to put conscious effort into every thing you do. They say what is what doing, is worth doing well. Don’t do it for doing sake, don’t do things simply because you don’t want to feel left out. 

For the longest time,  I made my Instagram mini makeup tutorials nonchalantly, I used to get carried away and forget to have a second glance at my work, which was always visible in the end result. And at the end of the day i archive some posts. But you know, the internet they say doesn’t forgive. So instead of taking down that post after getting a low social media engagement or just looking at it like ‘it’s not worth it” why not do it well in the first instance? You don’t have to be a perfectionist, but when creating content bear in mind that there are a thousand and one content creators out there, yes the sky is big enough for everyone, but you can still be at the top or rather make a difference.

There will always be a million reason why you can’t make exceptional content like the next person, ranging from finance, work space location, name it. Instead of dwelling on those countless excuses, make the best out of what you currently have.  I just recently started doing that, and i can’t be happier.

In creating my makeup content, most of my products haven’t changed, my filming device and lighting are still the same,  but there’s a great difference. I now get comments like, “Your work is improving” (that’s an ouch to my ego) ‘ cos sometimes a girl feels like she has become ‘bahd’ here’s another one “this is your best work yet” and I’m like so what have I been doing? have the rest been so bad all the while? but then people see what you do and except you want to live in denial, I’d advise you give critics,  friends, and fans a listening ear. If I keep at this pace with every zeal and zest for acceleration , in no time I would go farther. All I’m trying to say is, I urge you to take everything you do seriously,

. Be deliberate about it,

 . Acquire knowledge every second of the day,

. Be passionate about what you do.

. If you are a content creator put in extra effort, 

.Don’t be scared to ask mentors for help. 

And if you feel down because you have done all of these but you see little or no growth at all,  keep at it,  bearing in mind that time and chance happen to us all,  and consistency is all you need. There will always be tough and rough days,  but if that hustle is truly a passion, it will thrive through the hardest of times and you will come out smiling.  Never give up keep pushing… see you at the top… peace Zinop